Jed Nilson at the microphone during a recording
Prelaunch · Ten episodes recorded

Healingand Abundance

Jed Nilson spent thirty years building houses in Northern Utah. Then he had to rebuild himself. This is the conversation he wishes someone had recorded while he was doing it.

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FormatLong conversation
CadenceEvery other Tuesday
Recorded inOgden, Utah
Light through a timber structure at sunrise
Before the first take · Ogden
01

Nobody here is fixed

Jed still gets it wrong some weeks, and those weeks make the show. This is a record of the work, not a victory lap taken afterward.

02

Specific or it doesn't make the cut

Not "prioritize rest." What time he goes to bed, what he does when he wakes at three, and the thing he stopped doing entirely in order to make room for it.

03

Nothing is being sold to you

No protocol, no tier, no thirty day challenge. When something worked he says so, and then he tells you what it cost him to get there.

Jed Nilson mid-sentence during a recording
Ogden, Utah · Season one
The turn

He knew how to build a house.
He did not know how to build a life.

Jed grew up in the family construction business in Ogden and took it over from his father. He can walk a framed wall and tell you what the crew did and in what order. Load paths, footings, the sequence a thing has to be built in so that it stands up. He was good at it early.

The same man who could read a set of plans could not tell you what he needed on a Tuesday afternoon.

What he found in recovery was that the structural thinking transferred. You do not fix a settling house by repainting the cracks. You go under it. The order matters, the foundation goes first, and the parts nobody sees are the parts holding it up.

That is the whole show. A builder taking the same approach to a person.

The four threads

What gets talked about

01
A steaming cold tub outdoors in frost

The body keeps
the schedule

Sleep, cold, breath, food, movement. Not a wellness stack, but the boring infrastructure that decides whether the rest of it is even available to you that day.

02
Light through an unfinished timber frame

Sobriety as construction

What recovery actually asks of a person, in the plain language of someone who has been doing it long enough to stop performing it.

03
A shaft of light on a concrete wall

Abundance without
the seminar

Jed runs a real company with real payroll. What money is for, what it fixed, what it did not touch, and why the word abundance stopped meaning what he thought it meant.

04
Two people talking over coffee

The people who carried it

Conversations with the ones who were in the room. Sponsors, teachers, his wife, the crew who kept showing up. Fewer experts, more witnesses.

Recorded, not yet released

Ten in the can

The first season is finished. It goes out every other Tuesday from the week episode one drops.

Two chairs under a lamp in a dark room
Episode 0148 min Transcript published

The day the wheels came off

The version of the story Jed has never told on a stage, including the part he still does not like saying out loud. It is the only episode he recorded twice.

02

Why builders make bad patients

On being the person everyone calls for help and having no idea how to ask for it.

52 min
03

Three in the morning

The hour Jed used to dread, what he does with it now, and why he stopped trying to sleep through it.

41 min
04

What the cold actually does

Two years of cold water, minus the evangelism. What changed, what did not, and the week he quit.

39 min
05

Payroll on a bad week

Running a company while you are coming apart, and what he owed the people who work for him.

57 min
06

The yoga thing

A fifty year old contractor in a beginner class, and why he kept going back after the first one went badly.

44 min
Inside one

Chaptered, so you can
find the part you came for

A ridgeline at dusk
Episode 01 — The day the wheels came off
48:12 · Transcript published
00:0048:12
The library

Something to actually
do on Monday

Every episode ends with one practice. They collect here, so the show leaves you with a shelf instead of a feeling.

Hands resting, folded
BreathSix practices
A bed in early morning light
SleepFive practices
A steaming cold tub outdoors in frost
ColdFour practices
A mat on a wood floor in morning light
MovementSeven practices
A meditation cushion beside a window
StillnessSix practices
A simple plate of food on a wooden table
FoodFive practices
A trail through aspens
OutsideSix practices
Two chairs and two mugs
ConnectionSeven practices
Drag to move through the shelf
Chairs arranged in a circle in a quiet room
The room

Most of it was said
in rooms like this

Jed did not work any of this out alone, and the show does not pretend otherwise. Half of season one is other people talking while he stays out of the way.

Sunday letter

One page,
Sunday morning

What Jed is working on, what he got wrong that week, and the one practice from the next episode. It goes out whether or not there is an episode.

No sequence, no upsell. Leave whenever you want.

Empty chairs in a quiet room
The circle

A smaller room,
once a month

Listening is not the same as doing it with people. The Circle meets on a video call, capped small enough that everyone talks.

01

One hour, first Wednesday, evenings Mountain time

02

One practice from the season, worked through together

03

Jed is on the call, not a moderator standing in for him

04

Capped at twenty so nobody sits silent for an hour

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A small group seated in a circle
Next call
Wed 04
13 of 20
Straight answer

Who this is for,
and who it isn't

A person seated, listening, hands folded

Worth your time if

  • You run something, hold it together for everyone else, and have not told anyone how it is actually going.
  • You are early in recovery and tired of being handed a slogan when you asked a real question.
  • You have read the books and done the protocols and still cannot make any of it hold past a month.

Skip it if

  • You want a program with a start date, a workbook, and a completion certificate at the end.
  • You are looking for a supplement stack or a morning routine to copy exactly.
  • You need the host to have it figured out before you will take him seriously.

This is one person's account of what worked for him. It is not treatment, and it is not a replacement for a doctor, a therapist, or a meeting. If you are in crisis, call someone tonight rather than listening to a podcast.

Two figures walking a trail
Ask him

The last episode of
every month is questions

Ask anything. It stays anonymous unless you say otherwise, and Jed reads them himself rather than having them screened first.

Questions

Before you
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The studio microphone under a warm lamp

Both, and that is the point. Jed did not stop running a construction company while he got sober. The episodes move between the two because his weeks did.

No. Roughly half of season one is about sleep, work, money, and staying honest with the people around you. Those apply whether or not you ever had a drink.

The podcast and the Sunday letter are free and stay free. The Circle costs money because it is twenty people and an hour of Jed's evening. Nothing else is planned.

Between forty minutes and an hour. They are chaptered and transcribed, so you can read one in ten minutes if that suits you better.

Ten episodes are recorded. The launch date goes out to the Sunday letter first, so that list is the way to hear about it before it is anywhere else.

Episode one

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